Fake It, It Will Come

The dark night of the soul is a very humbling experience. You feel less than abandoned and cast away from everyone, even God. You are torn down to the depths of hell; you think light is impossible and that you are not worthy of God’s graces. Sleep deprivation goes on for what seems forever. During the void, all your senses are taken away. You also think that whatever was causing your difficulty has ended at least a million times or so. Life becomes so difficult that you want to die just to be put out of your own misery. In my particular case, I had so much pressure and pain that my survival did not seem to be an option. I believe all this happened because I asked to awaken and remember who I really am. I also did this in the emotion. I was crying. The dark night of the soul is emptying your sorrow cup so that it can be filled with joy.

Most of the beginning of my book was journalized, and I just copied it from my journals. But it helped set the stage for what was to come. In the rest of my book, I just told my story from my past or the present. To protect the innocent, I used first names or changed them. Until I asked to awaken and remember who I really am, almost nothing paranormal happened to me, and then it became a common occurrence.

I do consider it a privilege to have gone through this experience, but you might not think so during the worst. All men die, but only a few men really learn how to live. The old fear-based Kathy did die; now I am walking in faith with Jesus at my side with his rod and staff that give me courage. You might even want to sit back and enjoy your misery; your experiences will be unique. I am also excited about extending joy and ecstasy to all I meet. This is a new time for a new millennium on a new earth to orchestrate it on. Just how much serendipity can the planet earth and universe hold? There is no limit! Fake your dream; it will come. Imagine your dream; it will come.

-- Kathy Gotz